***

***

He returned to the first question.

When he thought back, he must have felt lonely sometimes, if not every day.

But even that loneliness became blunt as he got older.

He didn’t even know if he couldn’t afford to live in a feeling of loneliness.

Tamon took a deep breath and looked at Asha, who was sleeping. The soft breath that went in and came out was so precious and sweet.

Asha’s warmth in his arms always made him hot.

It wasn’t just the body heat. It was the primordial power that made his soul and life blaze brightly.

‘My Asha.’

His only engraver.

The one and only perfect person in the world who gave each other’s hearts a name.

‘My sea.’

His heart, which had been missing one piece, was filled with seawater called Asha.

She filled him with waves and suppleness, and that full satisfaction made him happy.

Happy.

Happy!

Tamon smiled involuntarily and gave strength to his arms, which were holding Asha.

His unreasonable obsession and possessiveness enveloped Asha like a vine.

Without knowing his dark and gloomy heart, she was as lovely as she fell asleep in his arms.

Tamon tried to relax his strength and kissed her soft forehead and cheeks.

He felt sorry seeing Asha’s cheeks had become thin because of the unexplained deterioration of her condition.

Seeing her sick was more painful than he thought.

For Asha’s existence was so precious and great within him, he was ecstatic at every moment, but was also nervous.

‘I hope you don’t get hurt, don’t get sick, don’t suffer.’

May all the happiness of the world surround her…

Tamon swept down Asha’s slender back, praying as he had never prayed before.

Perhaps, he felt once again that there was no one more precious than this.

***

“Are you okay?”

Tamon asked, clasping Asha’s cold hand.

Their carriage entered Monstein’s entrance, and soon, Tamon’s men, who had already been sent to find the inn, would lead them.

Asha grabbed Tamon’s hands, loosening her fists that had been clenched all the way to Monstein. Her nervousness made her stomach churn more, but her heart was beating so wildly that she couldn’t afford to complain about her pain.

She looked at Tamon quietly with a smile on her pale face. Her mind was complicated as she looked into his eyes, full of concern.

‘Should I tell him in advance? Maybe I’m pregnant.’

But it wasn’t certain, so she couldn’t open her mouth easily. If she wasn’t, it would be unnecessary excitement. Whether that’s positive excitement or not.

Asha took a deep breath and clasped Tamon’s hands tightly. Tamon smiled a little, as if to ease her worries, and kissed the back of her hand, which was holding him tightly.

‘Once I see a doctor and know for sure, then we’ll talk.’

Just then, a view of the city was revealed out of the carriage window.

Thump. Thump.

Asha’s heart pounded non-stop loudly.

***

“Congratulations. You’re pregnant.”

In spite of all the hardships until she reached Monstein, the doctor gave her an affirmation plainly and simply.At the doctor’s words, Asha looked back at Anna with a pale face.

“Oh my god!”

Unable to contain her excitement, Anna jumped up and covered her mouth.

After breathing heavily for a moment, Anna hugged Asha.

“Oh my God, my God…”

Anna’s arms were trembling with excitement.

“Uh, so. Uh… Yeah. Congratulations! Congratulations, Asha. Congratulations. Really.”

She wasn’t really sure if this was something to celebrate.

But Anna muttered her words of congratulations powerfully for Asha and for the newly conceived young life.

Her friend who had lost all of her loved ones.

Of course, there was Tamon Krasis, who was as strong and loved as her family, by Asha’s side, but it must have been significant for Asha to have a new blood.

“Really, a baby…”

Although she had clearly prepared in advance, Asha’s voice was trembling.

It was rare for her to be so surprised, so Anna was able to guess just how much Asha was at a loss now.

Anna gave more strength to her hand holding Asha.

“Everything will be fine.”

‘My friend, my queen.’

‘I know that you will always shine in any circumstance, in any environment.’

“It’s all… it’s all fine, right?”

Unlike Asha, who was rigid, Anna’s voice swallowed up her tears.

‘She’s calm, but why is my heart racing like this?’

Anna tightened her nose and grinned, clenching her teeth.

Asha, who was facing Anna, slowly raised her hand and gently stroked her flat stomach.

‘Really…there’s a baby in here?’

They said if you are too surprised, you’ll lose your sense of reality.

Of course, even though she had already been prepared from last night, her head was dazed.

Asha stroked her unfamiliar belly with her trembling fingers.

She couldn’t believe it at all, but she was strangely out of breath.

‘My child. Yes, my child…’

Unfamiliar emotions surged. It was a different kind of unfamiliar than when she accepted Tamon’s love that poured like a waterfall.

She was dizzy, confused, and out of breath.

Her complex mind was chaotically unfolding her own life that would be changed by the birth of her child, but none of it was engraved in her mind.

In fact, she didn’t even dare to guess. She could not imagine the changes that would happen to her by having a child, and the future that would be different with those changes.

Because it was clear that it would be more than anything she could imagine.

“Ah.”

Tamon.

Asha glanced through the closed door.

There was Tamon beyond that door.

She forced Tamon to stand outside because she wanted to be sure first.

Not knowing what was going on, Tamon was pushed out by her and stood guard outside, so it would have been quite absurd.

Even though she was confused, Asha’s face was bright.

“The examination will be done again in 3 months. In the early stages, the miscarriage rate is high, so you need to be very careful. Are you traveling? If that’s the case, you need to be more careful.”

The doctor calmly gave instructions to Anna, who was excited.

He also said morning sickness was just the beginning.

Asha grabbed her dizzying head and engraved the doctor’s words as best as she could.

“I’ll recommend some herbal teas that are good for calming. Don’t worry too much. Tea is good. If you take it easy, you will feel better soon.”

The doctor prescribed safe and mild medicines for pregnant women to take.Most of the prescriptions were tea.

She got up from her seat and said she shouldn’t drink too much of these things.

As soon as the doctor left, Tamon came in.

Tamon, approaching with long legs, knelt down on one knee, and looked up at Asha, who was looking at him with a mysterious expression.

“Why do you look like that? You kicked me out, and what kind of secret conversation did you have with the doctor?”

A rough but friendly hand grabbed her cheek.

Asha breathed slowly and deeply, resting her cheek on Tamon’s hand.

“Tamon.”

“Yes?”

“I have something to tell you.”

Tamon’s forehead wrinkled at Asha’s serious expression.

“What’s with such a serious face?”

Asha glanced at Anna.

Anna nodded her head and quietly left the room.

In the room, Asha was left alone with Tamon.

A strange silence surrounded the two of them.

“What’s the matter? No way… don’t tell me something is seriously wrong.”

Tamon asked nervously at the unusual air current. Anxiety hung in the red eyes that were as bright as jewels. As soon as he thought he was going to run out of breath, Asha calmly opened her mouth.

“Here..”

Asha said, putting Tamon’s hand on her flat stomach.

“I have a child.”

When the main topic came out, Tamon’s breath had already stopped.

***

“The carriage! Yeah, I should change the carriage first. No. No! I need to buy a mansion near here, and stay here until Asha stabilizes.”

“…Tamon.”

“Size, Siege! Go out and get a home dealer! Get someone who can sell the best home, come on!”

“Tamon, calm down.”

Asha expressed displeasure at Tamon’s rising voice and begged.

It had been like this the whole time Tamon heard that Asha was pregnant.

He paced around the room as if he couldn’t calm down even at Asha’s call, and he ruffled his messy hair again and again.

“I’m going crazy! I have to find a resident doctor too…Damn it! What should I do? By the way, are you okay to walk? What if you accidentally fall?”

Unable to sit or stand, Tamon hovered around Asha incessantly.

It was very strange to see Tamon looking nervous, unable to do this or that.

He was always relaxed and ill-tempered, but now he was like a bubble that would burst with the slightest touch.

….Interesting.

Asha observed such Tamon with her curious eyes.

She, too, had been confused just a few hours before, and her mind sank in a strange way when she saw Tamon making more fuss than she was.

Even Tamon lost his mind the moment he heard they had a child.

She could believe this man would react like this.

The ripple effect of that single sentence, “We have a child,” seemed to be enormous. Fortunately, Tamon’s stunned state lasted less than five minutes. The first thing he did when he came to his senses immediately was to hug Asha. He silently embraced Asha with his big arms and big hands.

He didn’t say a word, just hugged her, but it was as if his voice could be heard from his heart.

‘He’s trembling.’

A trembling sigh erupted, and short kisses poured nonstop. On Asha’s hair, cheeks, neck, and nose.

“Tell me I didn’t hear it wrong.”

Those were the first words he spoke after a while.

“Please tell me with your lips and your voice that I didn’t hear you wrong.”

Asha gladly spoke again in a clear voice for Tamon.

“You and I have a child.”

Tamon closed his eyes and held his breath for a while, then opened his eyes.

Then he went out in great retaliation, but heard the sound of something breaking.

When he returned, his forehead was red, but the wise Asha pretended not to know.

***

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